I’m done.

I gotta start being more positive with the things in my life. This negativity is gonna be dealt with now.

Livin’ the good life. No shit is gonna stop this.

25 years old. hahaha.

A quarter of a century. I can’t believe it.

This is a promise to myself. Never give up, Never stop moving, never settle.  I will always beastmode with my goals and my dreams. I ain’t getting any younger.

If you’re going through hell, keep going.

   This is  my motto. I don’t care. I’ve learned this. Don’t expect anything for anybody.  I have to remain focused and prepared. I am training for the GoRuck. I’ve never done one before. This is something I want to do. I’ve done the Warrior Dash and Tough Mudder. This  Goruck is something personal to me. I want to see how well my body can endure. Also, I want to try something new. I just want to prove to people I can do this. I signed up in New Orleans on the 27th of October.

    2 years ago I thought I would never do any of these things. I was addicted to playing videogames on a daily basis. I would constantly play mw2 ever single day. That’s how I got fat. I gained about 40 pounds plus.  It was one of the reasons why I took a break from school, my girl leaving me and losing friends. I became a couch potato. It also lead to the infamous sweat I get during winter. I’ll never forget. It was about 30 or so degrees outside in Pensacola. All my friends were wearing thick jackets. I was the only one sweating. I was wearing only a t-shirt. I knew I was over weight. I didn’t care though. My breaking point was not able to keep up with anything.  I was always tired, snored too damn loud, looked unattractive  with clothes, and had to use my humor to try to get to be noticed. I hated being called fat.

  So, here I am now. Constantly training into a better man. I’m down to the hundreds.No more 200 plus pounds. I want to get down to 180-170. I want to be able to do a triathlon and a full marathon. I’m ok where I’m at. But when I hit that 180-170, I’ll be ecstatic on what I’ve  accomplished. This time in three months I’ll get there. Lets move.

Update

“Never let your head hang down. Never give up and sit down and grieve. Find another way.”

   I’m like this all the time. But there’s a moment I can’t do it. I’m constantly finding motivation yo keep on going. It’s hard but I  always find another way. The last time I’ve updated was around January. Lots of good and some bad has happened. I didn’t reach my goal to 180 before the wedding, but I’m close to it. Shit is hard work I tell ya. I’ll get there around summer time. These past few months  has been a roller coaster. I’ve met this girl and she’s amazing as hell. I can tell you this she got me stuck in quicksand and gives me there butterflies. I haven’t felt this was in a long time. I met her in a random pub crawl. She has a great personality and gets along with my friends. Here’s the bad part. She’s moving to  South Korea to teach English and talking to another guy. So that kinda sucks. But I won’t take it as a loss. I’ve learn to move on quickly, noticed my confidence has upgraded, I won’t settle for less, and always be myself. So as of right now I’m doing fine.

edit:

  Ok, Ok, It does bother me a little bit. I do feel a little down though. I’m usually that type of guy that keeps busy constantly with work, working out/training, studying  and running errands . Whenever I do  have that down time, sometimes I would like to have a girlfriend to tell her how my day went or just somebody to hold and kiss. I sound like a hopeless romantic. Now you know. ” I’m not a player, I just crush a lot.” and I do a lot. Done with the one night stands . I always try to find a woman that can roll with me. Loves the outdoors, loves working out, loves to cook, loves to read, loves to play games, loves me for me. I guess my standards are pretty high. Maybe God’s telling me it’s not my time yet. He has something planned for me. I can only keep moving forward. Maybe he wants me to do all the things I wanna do before he finds me a girlfriend. Thoughts of a hopeless romantic. geez